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I needed to be blown out of the entrepreneurial ballpark

I know there has been radio silence on henrietteweber.com when it comes to posting frequency.

The reason for this is that I have taken a much needed break from everything and I am starting to figure out how I want to do things smarter. In retrospect, I can see that I have been running around without my head and heart in things and trying to get ends to meet for far too long. Kind of like a curly digital guru who doesn’t know who she is or what she should be doing, but she needs to get more followers and likes and because it matters for business. I lost track of my core and it almost got the best of me.

It all changed when I met with my spiritual coach for the first time: the ever awesome and totally amazing in everyway: Mariakaisa Bruun. I met with her to get a better sense of direction from all the things I was doing: Toothless Tiger, henrietteweber.com (including writing books, articles, and doing speaking gigs) and geek girl magazine. She told me… that I had to pause right now and breathe. That I needed to get some energy back in my cells because otherwise there was a rockbottom out there called “stressed out of my mind and not functioning in anyway” and that I couldn’t allow that to happen, because the universe had bigger plans for me. After she said that, I found out that she was right. I was SO unhappy. I was SO into the whole race that I forgot my own brilliance. My specialness. The business avantgardist.

This is a learning curve. A different one for me than I have ever been on before. It’s a learning curve called “I need to get my shit together to be all I can be, and I can’t become a complete stress victim before I am 35″ .

Since november, there’s so many things I have said goodbye to. Things I don’t miss. People I don’t miss. I am so much more focused and more true to myself.

That’s a gift I have found in this process. Because I had lost track.I had no idea what I was doing except for surviving. Surviving is not living. I have been trying to keep entrepreneurial spirit floating, trying to stay true to myself and at the same time making ends meet.

The past couple of years have been dead hard. We have gone through financial hell. And I have kept what I thought was my core intact because otherwise I would have been selling out. I should probably have sold out and gotten a job a while back, but I just couldn’t. I thought I needed the to wave the entrepreneur flag high.  I thought I needed  to keep producing and performing…

…I ended up killing the idea of “the digital guru icon” inside of me all together. I guess I just got too caught up in the game. I forgot myself. I forgot my brilliance. I just became a 5 step mashable article, because I thought I needed to be retweeted. I thought I needed to be the entrepreneur because everybody wants to be her. She’s cool, she’s popular, stylish, curly,  and  she’s doing her own thing.

Now… I am back at just doing my own thing. Working on finishing a bunch of projects that are important to me, but hasn’t been touched for ages. Working on polishing some others off. Taking my space. Claiming my ground. Not being an entrepreneur for the sake of being the entrepreneur. Not being an entrepreneur because it’s what you need to be these days. But just being me. Loving myself. Cherish what I have already given to the world of inspiration and build an empire on that. And just stop and take a walk in nature for once in a while. Taking care of myself.  Oh yeah and get those brilliant curly digital guru ideas back again. Because trust me, they are coming back again.

rock on henriette weber

 

4 Responses

  1. Jeg elsker dig <3
    Du er så sej, cool og så meget på vej hjem til dig selv. Mega tillykke med at du har valgt dig selv til

  2. Hvor er det godt, at du fangede dig selv, inden du ramte bunden!
    Jeg har som du ved ramt bunden hårdt et par gange eller 4 igennem mit liv. Men jeg synes stadig, at det er svært at se bunden, inden jeg rammer den…
    Efter 2013, som var rent helvede, så ser 2014 ud til at bilve et godt år.
    Jeg har taget et deltidsjob, så der kommer lidt penge ind og så har jeg tænkt mig at lave det, som jeg synes er sjovt. Og så får det lov til at tage den tid det tager :) <3
    Knus og kram Charlotte

  3. Well done, Ms. Henri! Glad you’re back on track. And don’t worry, you’re still a rock star. By default.

  4. Glad that you have found a way!

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