
This morning (while my daugher woke up at 5.45 am and wanted to watch cartoons), I found myself browsing through one of my many attention stream and stumbled across this amazing post by Chris Heuer. Chris is a fantastic talented man that I met when we both spoke at next09 and disruptive media (in germany and sweden in May), even though we have only been together for a couple of hectic days, he’s one of the people that I have liked the most (yeah Im crazy about you Chris =)….
It moved me because I could so see myself in it and I started to comment to share my own beliefs and my own views on this. And as courageous as I think that Chris is to post something like this – I thought I would do the same. So this is my comment for Chris (and for myself and for the rest of you)
“Hi Chris – what an amazing post. I just want to share – that one of the things I live and breathe by everyday is that you “do” things out of fear or out of love. Those are really the two options there is out there. If you think about every action or every reaction you do/give. it’s an either made in love or hate. Personally I struggle everyday with discovering myself… I don’t know if you know tut.com (and their letters from the universe) but it’s something I think is so totally transforming and gratifying for me… the other day this ticked into my inbox from tut (and I am not associated or anything with their service) :
henriette, I know what it’s like. I’ve seen it played out a few
zillion times. You’re waiting for that magical day when someone makes
the connection and recognizes who you really are. Maybe they’ll first
catch the sparkle in your eye. Or perhaps they’ll marvel at your
insights and the depth of your spirit. Someone who will help you
connect the dots, believe in yourself, and make sense of it all.
Someone who will understand you, approve of you, and unhesitatingly
give you a leg up so that life can pluck your ready, ripened self from
the branch of magnificence. Ahhhhhhhhhhh…
Well, I’m here to tell you, henriette, your wait is over. That someone, is you.
Good thing you rock,
The Universe
This completely states how I feel and what I have been feeling like since forever.. I crave for approval and I would love that day where I actually get it. People really close to me always say that everytime I have achieved something or people they tell me how much of a difference I have done in their life – I don’t let it in. My first thought is always “you’re jokin – right” – and not ” thank you so much, it means the world to me – as I normally say. And it really means the world to me that people say that – BUT: I can’t take it in. I can always do better. I can always strive for more. it’s a never ending story where I am afraid on the impact it has on me. So what if I have recently published what looks like (by the feedback from people) a fantastic book (in danish only so far), so what if my thoughts and my ideas implemented and putted down on paper is mindblowing and lifechanging – there’s really more for me out there to do – so I better not relax and get going, hurry hurry I might miss out on something. And as that Tut.com quote from above, all I need to do in order to be happy and confidentand settled right now (and ever) is to acknowledge myself and embrace myself and i just don’t know how. there’s no key, there’s no hint. I don’t know how to do that…I might learn it. I know the answer is inside of me, but it’s a no go for me so far.
People always tell me, that when I start to realize how much of a difference i actually do, working on projects, doing events (like the amazing socialmediacamp copenhagen from yesterday), currently starting up social media club copenhagen, promoting and market my book “return on involvement” and how my views, processes and ideas about business and marketing are spot on, then the world should watch it’s back and be ready for changes. As soon as I discover myself. I really want to. but I don’t know how- yet. ”
Thank you so much Chris for sharing – I really needed to get this of my system =)