One of the toughest things for me, when it comes to working, has been the mindload. Thinking all the time, never stopping. Not being present in the now because there’s always something new you can do. There’s always a new spin on the record – of an old or a new idea. Living in my inner world in my head.
Mindload is very different than the workload. Workload is the thing you have to do. Mindload is things you have to do + whatever else you can think up to help you achieve the goals for your life. And you can get so caught up, it’s scary. I noticed how far out I had personally come when it came to focusing on my brain, no focus on my body’ when I started not being able to sleep at night. I had to think. I had so many ideas and things to do; it made me feel numb most of the time. I had so many worries.
These days, mindload is my friend. So is workload. I have made a pact with myself not to burn out again ever. I have a made a pact with myself to shine my brilliance and take it slow. Doing one thing 100 percent instead of doing a hundred things 1 percent. Oh and give my brain a rest from time to time.